December 2009
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I wish I knew the real you. I’d like to think I do, but recently, not so much.
I dont know myself - so how can i expect anyone else too. I dont know my reasoning, I dont know my choices, and I certianly dont know which direction im heading in. Im certain of the love of my friends that I have, but I hate the different sides I have; I build wallk around different people -...
Enjoy yourselves
Without this entire passage sounding all too…’cliche’, I must admit within the past few weeks this quote has become far too easy to relate too: “At any one point in time you can feel at your best; untouchable, invinsible, on top of the world. Then in an instant - just as quick as it came, it can dispearse, like the feeling of security, and happiness, were mere twinges in...
When things change
When I was little, I remember my mum giving me a bath in the morning before school. It was always so early that it was still dark outside. She only ever turned on a few lamps in the morning, hating the harsh glare of brighter lights so early. The hot bath would always wake me up slowly and I enjoyed scrubbing my tiny elbows, knees and feet. She would wash behind my ears and wash my hair for me as...
Understand
“Writers fight a myriad of internal battles that are difficult to translate to other people. For example, they often have low self-esteem coupled with an odd form of grandiosity (John Barth: “It’s a combination of an almost obscene self-confidence and an ongoing terror.”); they are intelligent but in unmeasurable ways; they are highly skilled yet have difficulty finding congenial work in the...
This girl does make me laugh
I tend to treat google like it’s a person i’m talking to.
“can i store a fruit pie for more than a week?” “how do i clean my white macbook after i get it dirty from eating snacks and whatnot?” “how often should you pumice your skin?” “how many pillows should i sleep with?” “how do i stop being a crazy person?” “how do i read an abacus?” “if you can take a dick, you can take a joke?”...
Hand talk
I always talk with my hands. I used to think it was perhaps an OCD thing, but I’ve found that the most passionate people I know do it, regardless of their stability of mind-set. I can fully describe to you what I’m ordering to eat at a restaurant with not just my words but my hands. There’s a specific action for a large diet coke with lemon and another for the way I want my vinaigrette on the side...
“So we breed negativity - but I guess its the sick ones that enjoy doing it....”
Poem
people are great, people are nice i have a habit of not thinking twice.
many nice people may say ive got issues but who is the one with red stained tissues?
its you! its you in your mighty high throne ill do things to you that will make you moan.
from pain, not pleasure.
So I love my Bestfriend
D.L. My best friend really is an inspiration. I dont think I give her enough credit for that. She used to have livejournal, but that became somewhat of a magnet to drama. So now she has tumblr. I would get one myself but it seems so confusing and my poor simple mind wouldnt be able to cope with that, I like the old, so livejournal will do. It’s not often I go on her tumblr, but when I do,...
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What are your oppinions on yourself? Do you think other people think of you differently?
My opinions of myself? Sadly quite low - I used to be such a confident person; knew exactly what I wanted of myself, and what I expected of other people. It took one event in my life to knock it at first, and then a string of events to totally collapse my confidence, as I reall dont have any...
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i really miss you, you know :( i don’t know where you’ve gone - or where i’ve gone - these past few weeks.
things aren’t the same without you around.
I know who this is from - be it giving your name or not. I miss you too! and I dont like it. If you want me to be honest, I feel a little sort of ‘pushed’ out of our bubble, or your bubble,...
“Love means holding on to someone just as hard as you can because if you don’t,...”
awaywiththestars:
at times you can over analyze every bit of your life, and make a big issue out of something so small. i do this quite a lot, and it can take over your life. but then, it suddenly clicks, that this is it. this is life. you can either make the most of it, or sit around thinking about the bad things in life, and how you should of said that, or you should of done this. i think its...
Summer
Whatever had happened before and whatever was to follow, a specific summer lives in my mind as the most horrific, yet memorable Summer. I spent the first half of it drowning my sorrows over a ‘break-up’ in shots of rubbing alcohol-like vodka into my eyes, and downing them off the sides of toilet sinks. An Angelina Jolie movie owned by a friend who is now deceased became my bible. I didn’t sleep at...
Visual
I think I have a desire for the visual, I like seeing the results of something in front of me. When I write something, no matter the audience or format, I always print it out to have it physically tangible. I feel guilty for killing trees with all my printing but I can’t help it. I need the evidence of an experience gone through or created right in front of me. I need to feel it, I need to look in...
“Try your best to learn how to do things for yourself, if you rely on other...”
Growing
They grew comfortable within the walls they finally called their home, filling it with their books and posters and just, stuff. She taught her how to do her laundry and how to correctly use her bank card in public, and in return she taught her how to develop photos in their makeshift darkroom, and how to execute a perfect polariod. When one left early for work, she would leave a note in shower...
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Do you write in hope that somebody in particular would read it so this would please them? Or do you write 100% in honesty.
Do you know what, when I first read this question - I did think, hmm I do write in the hope that certain people would read this, which is true to an extent - however it is certainly not to please them, just let them know how I am feeling if it is too...
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How do you know when your in love with someone or not?
Do you know what? I think thats a question that no one can really truly say they know the answer to; everyone defines ‘love’ as many different things - sadly, some, or most in fact, confuse it with lust. I guess I define it as that feeling in your stomach, you know, that ‘butterfly’ feeling that you...
River
“I jumped in the river and what did I see? black-eyed angels swimming with me, a moon full of stars and astral cars, all the figures i used to see, all my lovers were there with me, all my past and futures, and we all went to heaven in a little row boat, there was nothing to fear and nothing to doubt.”
Drawn
“There’s an inexplicable draw to the people who are wrong for you, bad for you; it’s for those of us who yell that there’s trouble when nothing’s wrong. You need to destroy things especially yourself. You find those people who will help you destroy yourself faster, the really fucked up weirdos who know how to hit the spots that will sting every single time. You tell yourself again and again...
Those three words...
I love you. You feel the same in return, but we can’t say it. We challenge ourselves with the vast beauty of language, when nothing is needed to explain my affection for you. I could spend hours all day and never tire of telling you the many ways in which you are perfect with every insecurity becoming an extension of your beauty. However, all the definable words thinkable can never compare to the...
Trip on the track
As an aspiring ‘writer’, I feel like I’m constantly trying to create entire worlds or rather, put the entire worlds I have inside me, down on the page. It becomes a tight rope walk where I can only hope to balance my mind with my instinct, and create something that not only functions, but breathes as well. I sometimes feel as if I’m playing God with language; manipulating it into the forms that I...
Cross off stuff you've done.
lishman92:
Graduated High School. Kissed someone. Smoked cigarettes. Got so drunk you passed out. Rode every ride at an amusement park. Collected something really stupid. Gone to a rock concert. Helped someone. Gone fishing. Watched four movies in one night. Gone long periods of time with out sleep. Lied to someone. Snorted cocaine. Failed a class. Smoked weed. Dealt drugs. Taken a college...
